Missing the ex

So yeah, I miss Amanda. A lot. Not sure completely why. I just want to see her...even though it's miserable. She and I don't get along, but I just think about seeing her, and I miss her. She's lonely...and I want her home. But w/ her being nice to me, but that doesn't seem like it will happen. I have a fantasy that she could come here and stay for a couple of days...just long enough that she wouldn't begin to lose her temper with me...sigh. It's never going to happen. :-(